growing up

Posted: May 7, 2008 in everything else

ok, so, i should really be doing some enquiry research and because i have done so little work, i am not going out tonight (housegroup or greg’s band) …

been having this really interesting conversation over on another blog.. its really made me think about my beliefs and position on things. I’ve been talking to a woman in the states who is both a practicing Christian and a lesbian. She’s in a monogomous relationship at the moment, and is convinced that this is not unscriptural. I’ve been really challenged to respond in love to her, without creating a ‘debate’ or argument. this is someone who has been hurt because of her sexuality.

i guess it just made me realise how much i’ve grown up in the last year or so… i’m reading the Bible much more regularly than i used to, I actually enjoy it most mornings, i pray… well, ok prayer life isn’t really that great on most days.. but its something i know i need, with God’s help, to work on. i used to hate theological chats, but now i love talking about the Bible- my knowledge of it has expanded this year so much, from reading it with people or just being excited and interested to actually read it… I’ve been learning more of just who God is, what His promises mean to me, and, mostly, just why He calls us to be obedient.

I’d be the first to admit that obedience was never a word that excited me, however as i read more and more of God’s heart for people and His plan of audacious grace, I realise that obedience is a huge part of it. there is more need than ever for us to obey. if the church is the bride of Christ, then we better get ready to renew our vows and promise once again to ‘love, honour and obey‘ our husband. He is the greatest husband we could ask for, and obedience can be such a joy. It really doesn’t have to be all bad, God always has our best in mind.

i guess i’ve just been struck again with how good God is, and even if there are situations where it seems hopeless, just remember that it will get better- there will be some sort of light at the end of it all, hebrews 12  says: ‘and let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. we do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame.’ Jesus was willing to take on the shame and pain of the cross, because of the joy awaiting him.. thats just too cool. He knew that his happiness was not dependent on any earthly outcomes, but was secure with His Father.

I read just the other day about the difference between pain and suffering: pain is when something you hoped for doesn’t happen, suffering is when you invest all your hopes for happiness and security in that thing that then doesn’t happen. Jesus is secure. we are secure in Jesus, nothing else, just Jesus.

it’s been an interesting time.

now i need to get back to some uni work, so i can be obedient to my current calling and pass third year… :)


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