Posts Tagged ‘banter’

…i can be your long lost pal

Posted: February 20, 2014 in life
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it’s been a slow, rainy, get things done sort of day.

and wile admittedly, i haven’t got that many things done.. i have done what felt necessary for the day.

i signed up for the daily IF:Equip emails, which have been a good reminder to stop and take 15 minutes to see what’s going on in the book of john. i’m a day or two behind the current day, so there’s usually a good amount of discussion already in the comments section. it’s been nice to be reading something, jornalling a few thoughts and then listening to tthe insights and comments of a whole community of women. it’s been valuable i think, because i have been recognising that i need to carve out more time to actually start listening to what God might have for me in this time and space. and it’s really scary to me to face those ideas. i know that this is a new chapter. i didn’t really want the last one to end though.

i’ve also been going through some of the million pictures from the last five years or so, trying to work out how to commemorate some of life. there are so many ways to create permanent/semi permanent reminders.

and i’m beginning to see life blossom. even in the midst of the rain.

plus, there’s listening to paul simon.


this weekend, and this week, have been full.

i’ve been surrounded by people- good, great, people but nonetheless, a lot of them.

i’ve been reminded to connect with the artist in me.

i’ve been reminded to be courageous.

i’ve been reminded that who i am is enough.

it’s been good, it’s also been pretty tough.

being at the summit, and just not knowing if i’ll ever see some of these people ever again… that was really hard yesterday. even if i only see them for two days, once a year, some of those people are precious for all that. because we are a family, we’re a community. and so i don’t mind giving up things for this family, i don’t begrudge the extra time. sure, sometimes i moan and complain about it, but hard work and long hours are in my blood, and when it’s something that i believe in, and somewhere that i love, and filled with people who believe in and love the same things i do… well, that’s just the icing on the cake.

i wrote some poetry, i made some art, i felt some connections.


it was good.

(i wrote this poem during one of the sessions when i should have been paying attention… but Jessie, from Miami, had given me such a powerful image that it just had to get out. so. here.)

(i couldn’t figure out how to get rid of the extra lines that keep getting put in there, so it’s a lot more spacious that i intended. well. that’s ok. the real spacing/ formatting is here)

a tree (inspired by Jessie. and Psalm 1.3, Jeremiah 17.8)

She will be like a tree planted by the river

sending her roots deep into the water.

She will be like a tree –grown from a seed, planted firmly.

She will be like a tree, strong trunk, firmly planted, weathering the storm, unafraid of drought, or heat, with roots… rooted in the deep.

rooted in the deep, deep water. wading through the shallows, cutting through the dirt, settled in the deep waters.


She will be like a tree grown by a river, ringed by sorrows.

ringed by joys.

fed on the dirt, the dank, the underbelly of the earth.

fed, rooted, planted in the dirt, in the reality of life, of community,

rooted through the throw-away, the decomposing, the shit. reaching deep, bringing forth the newness of life.

She is a tree, planted deep in the water.

currents move, things flow, seasons change and She.



She is a tree planted by the river with roots planted deep in the water.

heat and drought come, but She will still produce fruit.

ringed: ringed with life. ringed with the holy & the present & the mud & the dirt & the grime & the fruit…?

the fruit                       is good.

She is a tree, a tall, sheltering, productive tree, lined and ringed with a life fully lived.

planted firmly in the mire by a river, flowing, living, changing, and her roots go deep. and her fruit is good.


are a tree replanted in eden. bearing fresh fruit every month. never dropping a leaf. always




time’s a teacher never chosen

Posted: February 7, 2010 in life
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i was all set to tell you about the way my days have filled up this past week, between babysitting, prep for a big birthday party, the actual party, the various ‘turns’ that people took to entertain us (well, mum and i less so, as we were in the kitchen for the first half of the party) including some of the boys doing a set as ‘Take This’. and now.

now, i just don’t think that’s really the point. but i’m not sure what the point is.

and now several (read: one) days later, all i have to add is this:

i was talking to my dad today in the car on the way home from newport and i was telling him that i was scared that there would be either no news or bad news tomorrow because i’m really hoping for good news and no more delays, and he was saying that this is a time for learning, and i was thinking again of the cobalt season, time will tell. which is where the title of this post is from. that time is the teacher that we never choose. i didn’t really want to have to learn right now (except for things to do with urban kids ministry) and so learning to be patient and trust… thats a lesson i needed to learn, but maybe didn’t want to. and so, hopefully my prayers are becoming more truthful, i’m trusting and leaning and learning… and i’m glad of that, but also, i’d like to move. i’d like to join in. to not be standing still waiting anymore. but that’s not up to me. its up to the people who deal with visas, and more importantly (and pertinently), it’s up to God. so.

anyway, that was all.

you come and go, you come and go-o-o-o-o

Posted: January 19, 2010 in life
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dammnit facebook. i have Karma Chameleon stuck in my head thanks to facebook. (you know who you are, coughmcwilliamcough)


so i’ve been in glasgow the last few days, just enjoying catching up with friends and feeling more than ever that i’m in a strange limbo place and that though this was my home and will be my home, right now, it’s not. it’s brilliant to be here, but i feel a little like i’m intruding, this isn’t my real life right now. hmm.

i got the chance to be at the church i call home in glasgow on sunday and that was really nice. actually really nice as well that we (the housegroup i call myself part of) were on set up that day, so it was like i’d never been away. yet, i had, since most people’s reactions were like, hi… wait, what are YOU doing here? so that was fun.

really appreciating this downtime though.  it’s hard, because i know there are things that i am supposed to be part of, but they’re on the other side of the atlantic, so instead i’m sitting in the many coffee shops glasgow has to offer and reading books, or meeting friends.

anyway, i should get on and go meet another friend.  it’s a hard life, right…?!

(maybe today, i’ll hear about visa stuff, pray really hard friends! that would be so good!!!)

yet again, pictures with just a little commentary. i’m enjoying the break, a chance to do little other than sleep, read and sightsee, and it’s been nice to spend time with my family.


i did do a little dance that was captured on film… but in lots of pictures. sorry!

Laura Plantation:

honey lake swamp, louisiana:


Posted: December 24, 2009 in everything else
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lots of pictures, less words.

on the road:

in NOLA, from our balcony and/or out and about

road trip!!!

Posted: November 20, 2009 in life, people
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so, that’s where i’m going tomorrow night/sunday morning… we’re planning to leave around midnight, hopefully swing by through ohio (Cincinnati, though i didn’t add that in) to see an old friend of Jordans, before heading on through to the St Louis area… i’m really excited for the trip, for time to talk and see more of America, listen to some good music, see some of St Louis… all those good things… and we’ll be back in time for Thanksgiving….

wispa GOLD!

Posted: November 19, 2009 in everything else
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i got a brilliant package today.

i also got pelted with acorns.

i also need to try and think of somrthing to do about the bible with my 6th grade class.

and tonight is intern class- yay for all the interns being together!

and this time next week, i’ll probably be in St Louis (if you want to contribute to gas costs.. please give me a shout…)

and this time in two weeks, i’ll be back in Scotland.

eeeeshk, that’s kinda weird and a bit scary, because…. i have no idea whats going on…

but also awesome, cos i am looking forward to seeing friends and family in Scotland again… but i  will be very sad to leave these kids, even for a little while, even into the capable hands of the other interns… but i am wearing my Scotland hat today… yay.

i think thats all for now… :)

so, it turns out

Posted: November 2, 2009 in life
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that i am my mothers daughter.

we were in Walmart trying to find decorations and prizes for the harvest carnival for around $100 or less when the statement is made that, ‘we need cupcakes for all the kids coming to the carnival tomorrow.’

ok, i think. ‘well, either we can buy boxed mix or just the ingredients, which would be cheaper.’

ten minutes, two boxes of eggs, two tubs of margarine, a bag each of flour and sugar later, it looks like i’m making cupcakes for 170.

with no baking cases.

friday morning, and jordan and i go on an expedition to the end of the street to get baking cases from family dollar. (at this point jordan thinks i’m looking for cases of bacon.) family dollar = fail. save a lot = success!

once i have the baking cases and extra margarine, i start making cakes… thank the lord for the electric hand mixer (which i pretty much break) in the kitchen…

four batches of cake batter (so that’s 32 eggs) later, we’re done with cupcakes to spare…

and margarine. so orange buttercream icing it is…


anyway. the point of this story is, apparently i relish baking large amounts of cakes for children and teenagers and all the other interns, and then helping people decorate them whilst wearing a tartan-ish moo-moo/housecoat thing and a tea cosy hat and slippers (baffies) and offering people ‘a wee cup of tea?’ in a weird old lady scottish accent.

so the other exciting thing that happened this weekend was that we went to Hershey Park and Messiah College with a bunch of our 3-5th graders. and i charged my camera batteries. and i took the camera… but then i left it in my bag in the van… ooops… sorry guys, i failed. maybe someone else will have great photos they can share…

so Hershey on saturday was awesome, i had Shydel and Craig (pronounced the american/canadian way like creh-gh, not cray-gh) and they were both up for all the big scary rides… however we planned badly with the first part of our time there, and missed out on lots of big ride opportunities, BUT, aftr dinner we got a map and hit up 3 of the biggest scariest rollercoasters and lots of other slightly less scary still cool rides. it was a lot of fun…

back to the hotel, and then into the pool- i had three girls in my room in the end- and we had a freakin’ good time- especially with the jacuzzi…

snacks, ghost stories, tv and bed, and we were all out like a light…

the clocks changed that night, and so i woke up at 8am thinking, oh crap! we have to be at breakfast already, these clocks probably changed automatically… shoot! and then realised, by looking at my watch that actually, it was only 7am. so we had an hour to get ready, which was just as well, cos all three girks wanted showers and Winnie and i still had to get dressed and packed too..

Messiah- the kids got to go explore with the students, and we got the day off…. lunch in the cafeteria, almost losing a child, then more free time… where i got attacked by sharpie… yuh.

back on the bus… and time to go home… all was controlled mayhem for about 20 minutes and then, there was an hour or so of brilliant peace, card games and magic tricks were played, several games of squares were enjoyed (that game is a life saver!) and then… we got near home. and it became crazy again. it was just really sad to see a kid that had been enjoying himself so much for so long need to react out, and become unable to listen to directions or enjoy the last half hour of the trip.. it made me sad.

over all, an awesome trip and i’m really sorry i don’t have photos for you…

damn cameras

Posted: October 15, 2009 in life
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i was going to take lots of photos for this post. but my camera battery died.

so instead, i’ll tell you that we’re doing a penny drive at camp and in three weeks, we’ve raised over $200!

two HUNDRED dollars! we were expecting maybe $60 by this point.

these kids are crazy.

i’ll get some photos and give you guys the photo love soon… sorry i’m so lame.. :)